The past few weeks, many things have been put on the back burner in this family and I couldn’t wait to share it with you. Then something horrible happened and I now want to share that with you instead. Our Miscarriage Story.
This Valentine’s day, we celebrated a bit differently. After a few days of being moody and short tempered, I decided to head for a drive to clear my head. I wounded up at Shoppers buying a pregnancy test. Rob and I had just had an argument so I went straight up to the washroom to take the test. It was positive. We had talked about adding to the family sooner than later but thought that it would take us a bit. I brought the test downstairs and gave it to Aubrey who then brought it to Rob. Once in his hands and he realized what it was, he started to well up with tears. We knew this pregnancy would be different. There would be no long distance relationship and missing big moments. We were so excited for this to be the dream “Pinterest” pregnancy that we wanted for Aubrey.
The next few weeks flew by, and besides the extreme nausea that wouldn’t go away with anything, I never thought about the pregnancy. My pants didn’t fit anymore, and by 9 weeks I started telling my Co workers because I couldn’t hide the belly anymore. With all that, we didn’t feel a connection to this pregnancy like we did with Aubrey. we blamed it on our busy life and the fact that it was our second. Time would tell that it was probably due to a different reason.
Last Friday I finished work early and as I was getting changed and ready to pick Aubrey up, I realized I was spotting. As the afternoon and night moved on, the bleeding Became worse. I visited duty clinic at my doctors office the next day and the news wasn’t promising. The doctor that saw me said that there was a 50/50 chance that I was having a miscarriage, and if the bleeding worsened, I should go to emerg.
Less than 36 hours later, we got my sister to watch our beautiful little boy and we headed to emergency to find out answers. While there, we were put through many tests and ultrasounds with still no answers. I was run down and emotionally drained. They sent us home with an appointment to come back the next day for a proper in depth ultrasound. I went and it just felt like false hope. Rob and I knew at that point what was happening and it was becoming more upsetting to us when people like the ultrasound tech, tried to tell us the baby was fine but our dates were off. I was sent home on bed rest until I could see the Early Pregnancy Complications Clinic. Well, before we could even see them, our fantastic Family doctor Gave me a call and finally gave me the answered I needed. It was a miscarriage and the baby stopped growing at 6 1/2 weeks. I was 11 weeks pregnant. So, we began to plan the next steps. After a few more tests and doctors appointments, we decided on an MVA. It was a quick procedure and pretty pain free with no going under. We are just happy that it is now done and over with. Finally now we can move on and try again.
Miscarriages are so common and natural and we as ladies should be open to talk about it. I’m lucky because I have a Hilarious little boy who makes me forget about the pain of losing a baby. But, to those of you who are having a hard time, you need to remember that this was not your fault. Something was wrong with the egg or sperm or even the way they meshed together. It’s nature’s way to end a pregnancy that would never have been able to survive anyways. We are here for eachother, to support each other, to listen and talk eachother through those feelings.
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Katie Rose xo